Relation gone to dogs

reenaa · Joined: 15 Oct 2008 Posts: 120

My relationships going awry.
Ive turned my back on someone very close. person i was in awe of. i felt humiliated, hurt and dont have the face of seeing the person again. trhier words seem to whip me from inside. i dont want to go back to the person because i fear of being hurt in the future as well. this is lil painful as well.
i dont want to talk it to the person since it will always remain complicated.
my nature is complicated hence i create my own problems. no guarantee wont get same reaction since m unpredictable.
im contemplating of suicide. dont want to get in any relations anymore.
im left to my own.

reenaa · Joined: 15 Oct 2008 Posts: 120

Hey! Whats the matter.. you didnt reply?

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

sorry must have missed your post, if you are ever suicidial this is not the place for you and you need to tell your counselor. since you wrote that post, how are you feeling and what is going on with that person as well as yourself?

reenaa · Joined: 15 Oct 2008 Posts: 120

I only expressed the thoughts when felt the same.
have learnt to be happy bymyself.
things ok with the person. dont go to think what the other person thinks etc and less dependant now. dont try to be sth else other then myself. deal ppl with the head then the heart. getting a hold of myself and focus on studying. so things going good.

in a way humiliation was good because my ego got shakened up.

hey my studies involve 8 to 10 hrs on the laptop daily.
During lectures i take down notes since i dont remember. m sincere regd them only thing is i just dont register whats being taught. i understand but dont register. so if ive got to speak on it then i cant. need to refer notes. Could you suggest sth?

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

once again that is an adhd thing that you need to work on. you might want to tape record lectures s you can listen more in class.

reenaa · Joined: 15 Oct 2008 Posts: 120

That is a good idea.

hey i hd read that hours on the laptop is not good for adhd. now have to sit for 8 to ten hrs in a day quite some times.
in two days mentally i get saturated. m little worried about this.
what could i do?

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

ou needr to take breaks, take 5 mins blink close your eyes and recharge yourself.