My codependant self

[destiny691966]

I have been in this relationship with the father of my daughter. We were together for almost a year and a half but he was drinking heavily and running around on me. He would run back and forth between me and a girl he had met in a strip club who he got pregnant while I was also pregnant. After our daughter was born I finally kicked him out for good. He went to jail after that and I moved to Arizona. When he got out of jail I got him to come to arizona with us. He was with me for only a little while when I decided I didnt want him there anymore so I kicked him out again. He turned to another girl but he and I were still talking and he was trying to get me back. This went on for several years until I just stopped talking to him altogether. We still talked every once in a while but maybe once a year and most of the time he was drunk. Then last year in November we started talking again. He was in a really bad marriage and I was dealing with some family issues. Anyways He left his wife and came back to me and our daughter in feb. We were doing pretty good, we got along great and my daughter was happy to have both parents at home, so was I. But I started finding excuses to get rid of him again and when he messed up I kicked him out. He didnt even give me a chance to calm down and talk he hopped on a bus and went right back to his wife even though he said he only wanted to be with me. Now I feel betrayed and heart broke and I dont know what to do. I cant go back to being the other woman but that is where I am and I want desperately to talk to him but he cant talk to me because of her. I just feel lost. Can you please help me.

[Jennifer]

going to be straight with you. forget the guy and spend the time working on yourself. once you feel better about yourself you can work on having a healty relationship