I want HIM back

[mslove09]

I really would like to get back with my fiace we broke up and had a very bad fight.I need help.I know he is very angry at me for calling the b word but i was just so angry.He told to cry to someone else about us arguing.I just wanted him to listen and understand.We were arguing over something stupid.He thougt I wasnt listening to him because.Weve been together two years we reak up and get together. He always right and Im wrong.Everything is my fault.There certain he doesnt want me to do. Yet he does them himself.What I want s for him to change.I wish that he could see that hurts me with the things he does.He H e done things worse to me than i have done To him.Yet he always say i screwed the relationship that i istreat him.I act like a child all the time.I dont kno.I love him and I want be with him its ust the things he has done most women would have been left him.Heacts as though he is the reason we stay together that put forth all this effort to make it work. I feel like thats not true I feel lke I do all the work.I call him to apologize.I ignor some o the negitive things tat he says just because I dont want to start anything between us.This why we arguing anyways.I wastrying to caring about hima dn he took as me having an attitude.Yes I can be mean at times and I know I cntribute to the way things are but I dont feel like i should be blame for the way everything is between us.Im tired of taking the fall everytime we have a fight.Also we have drama we each others families well mostly with his because my family try to stay out of it but there has been somethings.Hi mother had called my phone left nasty mesages on my voice mail thereatening me over a cell phone that was free that me and my fiance had gotten together.I wasnt working at the tie and he was paying the bills.When I moved out of our apartment he said he wated the phone I said no if you want it take to court.He had his mom call me to try and get the phone .I ignored her call and I sent him a text saying to not call and to ask his mom not to call.She got mad leftanasty message saying that she would come over my house with anyone and have his sister try to fight over the phone.His family is disfunctional his mother is also biploar.So I decided to have my sister who is a minister try to speak with her to try like get het calm down.She yelled at my sister an threatened her so my sister threatend her.He said i wasnt a real women cause i had m sister step in.So i told he wasnt a real ma to run to his mother to try have her ask me to get the phone back.Well he never got the phone back.We broken up for a week he started to call me everyday and we got back together.He has left my locked out house sitting in front of the door ecause he took my keys away one time when he thought i had given my keys to give to someone to try to come in to our apartment.This was random and i was outraged that e would think i would let just someone come in to our home. He was in the bathroom when heard the front door and thought it was me .He caned his story on this too first it was he kept bathroom door closed and when heard the front aopen and close again he thought I had left again.Then he saw at the library and thn realized that someone had walked into our apartment oher than me and had to give my keys to someone else.For whatr eason why i would do this i dont know you have to ask him for that logic.Anyways he at first told me to leave.Then later after speaking to his mo he decided that he doesnt want me to leave so I stayed.he took my keys and broke them and then had a locksmith change the locks.Well heresthe thing with that.At that apartment complex maintnence men have keys to the apartments.Sometime they would make mistake go to the wrong apartment and try to go in.They do it all the time.Well this ow i ended up with no keys and how i got locked out like a month later.He was at work i went to look for a job.I left 10 mins from the time he gets off work.I was taking a assessmet test with my application at one place and it took me longer i thought it would.When i got home i was locked out.He was there.I ranged the door bell theni knocked on the door.I kept dong this.I also left him a note before I left the house.He finally came to the door like an hour later he ripped up the ote i lfet and through out the door an then slamed the door shut.So knocked on the door he told me to leave i said no.so we eventually was talking trough the door.Also i kad kicked the door a few time cuz i was angry he said that was mbarrassing him and I.I felt already embarrased and humiliated because im sitting out here waiting for him to open the door and he wanted to play games.Then he tells me he did that because he wanted me to leave and that he thought I had slept with anotherwhile i was out.Speaking of this was during the time when he had sex with his ex girlfriend.We had fight we said somethings we didt mean he wasnt talking to me i wasnt talking to him and that ext after this fight he sleeps with her.When i went over his house a few days later i asked if i could use his cell phone was acting suspicous he had delete things out of his phone.Next week i m over there samething.So thng week after that I decided to go through his phoneit was text message from a girl it just said hey.He replied dont call me im working it out with my girlfriend ok fine whatever.I asked him had he slept with this girl because i didnt know who she was the time.He said no.He tells me 3 weeks ago.Now this incident with him and his ex happened back in July 2008.He waits to tell me March 2009 that he slept with her.I guess that the question i should be asking should i get back with him.And i if i do hw can make him understand that i cant be the only in this realtionship trying to make it work.And he always bring things from past arguements up.He has come home from work and brought something that happened months to a year ago and we could be having a great day but yet he likes to chastis me and say how was trating him so wrong .I dont knw what to do
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Ms Love

[Jennifer]

why do you want him back? based on your story, it sounds as if he is doing you a favor in the long run.