why cant i change? i wanna be normal!

mohd_moe · Joined: 11 Dec 2008 Posts: 4

hey
i dont know but i have been suffering with this for a while.. i feel like i have homosexuality feelings in me.. i want to be straight.. but i dont know what's going on.. i am only a 15 year old guy and this is happening to me.. i wanna feel like i want girls for pleasure instead of guys.. but it just seems hard to change.. i am really in need of help here!!!

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

hey
firstly why do you want to like girls? what is so scary about liking boys. don't think you have a choice about that. you are who you are. how do you know your attracted to boys?

mohd_moe · Joined: 11 Dec 2008 Posts: 4

i know i am who i am
and i want to be straight.. cuz first of all its against religion and everything and second of all, i dont feel right! i want to change! i want to be straight.. but it seems that just looking at boys passying by makes me feel a lil pleasure.. yet according to the public i am straight.. so i want to feel that pleasure in girls.. i kinda force myself but i cant.. is there any way to accomplish that?

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

no, there is not. you could repress your feelings for boys and be with girls but eventually you will have to deal with this and its better to figure it out than to repress because if you are just curious about boys than if you figure that out, you can move forward.

I hear you about the religion and im sorry that your religion does not let you explore and try to figure out who you are.

mohd_moe · Joined: 11 Dec 2008 Posts: 4

thank you for ur reply
i am admiring your help
but i need you to understand that i want to be straight.. i dont want to be the other way because i dont like it.. there's nothing in me that wants to be one.. so is there any way to change back?

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

nope, I can only hope for you that you allow yourself the opportunity to figure this out, which might have to happen when your older.

as far as changing your internal belief system all you can do is resist the earges. good luck to you

mohd_moe · Joined: 11 Dec 2008 Posts: 4

i heard that there is a way to change back.. i need to start thinking opposite, being more masculine, etc.. so i dnt think i shud give up hope.. i heard it works..

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

might work temporary not sure about long term. sounds like you have not tried either sex yet so you don't really know if you like boys or girls. sounds like your belief system is getting in the way of you figuring this out.

take care.