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Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

yes that is a long time how long have you been a cd?

john galt · Joined: 25 Feb 2009 Posts: 12

It started in the first grade with a teacher.

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

and you have been in the closet with it your whole life, what is that all about?

john galt · Joined: 25 Feb 2009 Posts: 12

WHAT DO YOU MEAN "WHAT'S THAT ALL ABOUT?"

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

you said that you have known since you were a little kid and you are now trying to come to terms with this. have you tried coming to terms with this in the past. did something stop you? what is making you want to discuss this now? anything change in your life that makes this more important now.

Based on your answer about your wife, she would not be open to knowing about you and who you truely are. Are you willing to risk what you have in order to be who you are supposed to be?

john galt · Joined: 25 Feb 2009 Posts: 12

Who do you think I truely am? I was dressed by my teacher because I did something bad, not out of positive reinforcement for good grades. I t was done for embarassment and maybe something sexual (for her). I don't know. But in hearing my wife talk about people like me, to her CD'S aren't straight, and its something she really dislikes. Over the years every so often I think about changing my ways, I heard therapy is one way, to talk and discuss it. Well here I am. Is what I am good? Do you think its easy? Do you think... I think that at any time I will get caught?

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

I have no idea who you are. I am trying to ask questions to get you to explain who you are and where you are coming from. You have to understand that this is not true therapy, this is a support system that I have set up to help people with problems.

Sometimes people talk about things and they do not mean what they say when it is related to someone that they know. I have found that no matter what the issue is in a relationship, it always boils down to trust and honesty. You have been keeping something huge from your wife for a long time so I am no way telling you to tell her all we are doing is bring up topics to discuss based on what you are saying.

No matter how she feels about cder's she would be devasated that you have kept/lied to her for all these years.

So, lets just focus on you and figure out what you are trying to accomplish here which is going back to my first question.

john galt · Joined: 25 Feb 2009 Posts: 12

I guess what I am trying to accomplish is thrying to find out why it is such an addiction and why do I still do what I do even though as a young boy dressing was the punishment ..

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

You need to explain that some more if you can? Were you abused as a child? Why is this an addiction for you and not a lifestyle? Have you tried stopping in the past and could not do it. Please expand on how you are feeling.

Your doing great, this is what happens and you are learning how to open up. Good for you.