Anti-social, and anger problems

Bahr · Joined: 14 Sep 2010 Posts: 10 Location: South Georgia

Well, to start off, i'm 19. Have been working a full time job since I was 16. I dropped out of high school because I couldn't stand to be around so many people. As soon as I dropped out I got my GED and started working full time hard labor. I never go to town unless I have too because being around a lot of folks makes me uneasy, I was born and raised on a farm, mostly away from people and I like it that way.
Ive never had alot of friends, because well. I diddent want em'. I have a few decent friends. I never ask them for favors or for help because I don't want to ever depend on any body, and try to get along by myself. I spend most of my time when I'm not working in the woods, Isolated because thats the only place I feel comfortable.
But ive been getting worse. My anger problems. I don't like anybody. I don't start fights or get into them but it dosent take much to make me mad anymore. And I will hold grudges for ages. Once you make me mad, or disrespect me in any way. Its done.
My main problem is I'd like to be treated the way I treat folks, I was raised saying yes sir and yes mam. But most folks don't have that kind of decency or respect anymore and thats what make me mad. I think my main problem is I don't really have anybody to vent my frustrations on.
I get along better with faceless people over the internet because if I don't get along with them its easy to just block or delete them. And its easier to pick and choose people by what they type and say, than in "real life" where folks change so drastically and so quick.
So bottom line is, I want to get more social and get along with folks better but have no idea how.

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

you need to find people that have the same interests as you and the same respect level as you. i know how you feel about the respect and I can tell you that there are still some people out there that have it, you just need to find it.

Bahr · Joined: 14 Sep 2010 Posts: 10 Location: South Georgia

My problem is though. Having to get along with the people I have to be around like at work. The reason I came to this site is because of a recent incident at work. To start off, About two years ago a hydrolic line busted on me and the bucket of a front end loader fell and crushed my knee. Every since then ive walked with a limp. Well one new boy we had about 25 started making fun of me talking about how I looked like forest gump and asked if I wore the leg braces and started saying run forest run. So I snapped and grabbed him by the throat and told him if I ever heard another word come out of his mouth I would make sure he never walked again. Well I got em fired. But i'm worried that if something like that ever happens again i'm liable to lose it and hurt some body. I kind of feel bad for grabbing him and threating him. But it also felt good to put him in his place. It was like it just kept building up and when I did it there was a sense of relief. Its just been getting worse for me because I don't get along with or like anybody I work with really. I don't show it, I'll act cool around them, but honestly cant stand them.

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

this is not about people at work, this is about an anger problem and you let your emotions simmer and then they explode. called passive/aggressive behavior. the best way to deal with that is to learn how to be assertive, do something to relieve your stress everyday and learn to accept that people are who they are and are not going to be who you want them to be.

Bahr · Joined: 14 Sep 2010 Posts: 10 Location: South Georgia

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

you tell me what do you enjoy doing? any passions?

Bahr · Joined: 14 Sep 2010 Posts: 10 Location: South Georgia

Traditional archery. And I buy, sell, and restore antique knives. And collect custom and antique knives. Also interested in ancient tools and weapons, such as arrowheads. And study old swords and other hand weapons.
Don't worry about anger and my fascination with knives and weapons, Its simply something I enjoy and hopefully can one day turn into a career.

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

sounds good, not worried about that, is there someplace that you can do your archery after work?

Bahr · Joined: 14 Sep 2010 Posts: 10 Location: South Georgia

Yeah, I live on a farm. Plenty of places to shoot. I used to enter competitions, but too many folks. So now I just shoot by myself.

Also, ive already grown to like this site because I can just let stuff out with out being interrupted of having folks tell me their own problems and not care about mine. Its not that I don't care what you have to say quite the opposite. Its more I don't talk to awful much as it is to "real people". And because I'll likely never meet you i could care less if you think i'm strange for my problems. Which i'm sure you don't.

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

nope i don't kindof a strange compliment, but thxs i guess. glad that you have the space to do your archrery. people can be really stupid at times so its good to have an outlet to let out your frustrations that won't get you into trouble.

Bahr · Joined: 14 Sep 2010 Posts: 10 Location: South Georgia

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

i was pointing out a point to you. i know it was a compliment but for somebody not me they would not, just food for thought for you.

Bahr · Joined: 14 Sep 2010 Posts: 10 Location: South Georgia

Gotcha.

Bahr · Joined: 14 Sep 2010 Posts: 10 Location: South Georgia

This is something ive wondered about for a while. ADD and ADHD and all the medications that go with them. When I was in middle school I was diagnosed as having ADD. I diddent believe it, I couldn't concentrate because I just diddent like school. It diddent have anything to do with my brain. Well they gave me Ritalin, which when I took it made me high as a kite. I diddent like the feeling and soon stopped taking it. Point is I have a very high IQ, the teachers just did not like the way I acted so they gave me drugs to fit their standards.
Today most every kid I know is on drugs for ADD and ADHD and I cant help but the think that theres nothing wrong with them. But if they don't do perfect in school people automatically assume that they have ADD. Now I know that there are kids out there that actually have ADD and such. But not near as many as are having to take the medicine. I see it as teachers and parents taking the easy way out, instead of proper discipline and teaching.

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

you are making a very broad generalization, yes there are kids on meds that don't need them there are kids and adults that need med and won't take them, part of life that you are dealt and you have to determine how to deal with it. as a kid you don't have much of a choice but as you get older you are able to make decisions for yourself.