Hopeless situation. End of the rope.

[Marbles]

*sigh* This post is going to get very long.

I honestly see no way out of where I am right now.

I lost my job around 9 months ago and have been unable to get a new job. And I am completely out of money. Absolutely no money. Not even pocket change. I sold most of my clothing to Plato's Closet for money so I'd have something to eat, but that is gone. I haven't eaten any food in over a week, and I'm being evicted on Tuesday. Like, completely evicted, they are going to call the police to have me escorted off of the property on Tuesday.

I only have one thing to my name right now, a car, which is battered to death, which is unsellable. The car's registration is expired because I can't afford it. And when it runs out of gas this time, I won't have any way to refill it. I suspect it's only a matter of time before it get's impounded, and I don't even have that to live in to shelter myself from weather.

My parents are making a point to call me every other day or so, to mock me, and laugh at me and my situation. They have zero intention to help, and are greatly enjoying my situation, as they believe this is the holy wrath of God being sent down to smite me. They've been gleefully sharing the story with their church, who are all enjoying the situation greatly. They view it as the power of God being used to smite another abominable transsexual, and smile at the idea of me burning in hell when I die, and make no qualms about telling me that. My parents keep telling me how they are waiting for me to starve to death, so they can desecrate my corpse and dress me up in a suit for the funeral. Fuck them and fuck their imaginary god. Even if their god wasn't imaginary, any god they would worship is the true definition of evil.

Though, they are right, I probably will starve to death. I have zero friends, and every relative I have would rather see me dead than to help me.

I dunno where I'm going or what I'm going to do, but I'm out of options. I guess I'm going to go homeless for a week or two without food before I'm raped and killed by some person who thinks it's funny to do so.

[Jennifer]

hey
i know your situation seem hopeless, but you are still asking for help and you still have your sense of humor so sounds as if you are a fighter.

sorry to hear about your family. what about unemployement compensation? what about food stamps? not sure what state you are in but there is emergency help if needed.

how about local shelter. seems as if your family has runied the idea of church for you but there are people out there that can help. i can only hope that you can find them and they can find you.

not going to address the trans thing right now. first thing is your survival which needs to be acted upon.

[Marbles]

Unemployment compensation isn't going to happen because I had quit my job. A new manager came in who despised transsexuals, and made a point to call me a shemale every chance she got. The manager remove me from my current tip-based position, move me to pure dishwasher duty, on the same wage (Which was a fraction of what a dishwasher is normally paid), then cut my hours to under 10 hours a week.

I really didn't have many other options but to quit, especially considering Georgia's laws on employment.

Dunno why I've been denied for food stamps, but I did apply for them.

I don't know how to find a local shelter, nor do I suspect any of them would take me in. Seems like everywhere I go for help decides they don't want to help me. I'm increasingly becoming used to the "Ew ew ew you freak, get out of here" mentality.

Modern day leper. Might catch the trans. Or the gay. Oooh, scary!

[Jennifer]

sounds as if you are saying that people are pushing you away. are you sure, your situation is desparate and desparate times call for desparate measures, if you really want help, then you will accept it from any source. pride is not an option at this time for you.