is this normal??

[likeitsme]

i feel SO ALONE, it's not even funny. it feels like i'm on an island all by myself. it feels like no one wants to be around me or talk to me. am i that worthless? even with my own family i feel unbelievably alone. i don't know what to do. it feels like not one person could care what happens to me. this whole summer all i've done is work. i've been avoiding my friends and i don't know why! i know i said i feel lonely, but i don't even have the urge to go and hang out with them when they actually do txt me. and when i do, i'm fine with them. but then when i'm by myself i feel like no one likes me. i told my parents the one time that i've been feeling not happy with life and my mom thought i was making it up while my dad stared at me like i was nuts. i don't know who to talk to or turn to. even my best friend hasn't txted me in forever. i don't know what else to say except that i feel like i brought all this onto myself. i avoided them and now no one wants to hang out with me. i'm just a loser.

[Jennifer]

Okay, why do you feel so alone. Are you depressed? Do you suffer from deression? Sounds like you have people to interact with, but you just choose not too, why is that?

[likeitsme]

well i mean i don't know if i'm depressed. i'm fine around people, but then when i'm by myself i get really sad. and i don't know why. but i think i avoid people because when i was in the sixth grade i was made fun of really badly. i had no friends and people were constantly treating me like crap. sure i got over it i guess, but i mean i never told anyone about it till later on. i just would lash out randomly at my mom when she asked me why i was so sad. and i didn't want her to call the school [to be made fun of even worse] so i just never told her. i felt ashamed of myself. i feel like i trust people, but only to a certain extent than i just don't let anyone past that one point. except for my best friend and my sister.

[Jennifer]

Sounds like you are still letting people push you around to the fact that it still effects you. You need to recognize that you are not that kid anymore that needs to be afraid. Yes, people are still mean, but being sad when you are alone would indicate that you do not feel comfortable with who you are as a person and do not like to be alone.

[likeitsme]

it's just so hardd. so hard to get over things. it'll be little things. little tiny things and they'll make me so upset. like my best friend hasn't talked to me in god knows how long. but she's talking to our other best friend whose not even here, she's on vacation and i feel like she's changed. she's not the same person i used to know. and i just don't know what to do. i've been trying to hang out with other friends and stuff you know to get out of the house but it's so hard for me not to feel hurt. and i don't wanna message her because she should message me, i don't wanna be the person trying here she should try too and it's so effing annoying. and my mom makes me feel like shit about it. she sits there saying "oh she's not a good friend." or "you have no friends." or "i'm so naive." because i trust her. she's such a negative person. and i don't even tell her anything because when i do all she does is talk about the bad parts. sometimes i wish i had a different mom.

[Jennifer]

my theory is always go for the direct approach. talk to your friend find out what is up. it is when we assume, we get ourselves into trouble. as far as your mom goes, she is who she is and you have to take the good with the bad, well that is true for everyone.

[prelandra14]

your not a loser just to let you know i mean alot of people feel that way at some point
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