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abig24fan1993 · Joined: 18 Apr 2008 Posts: 18

Hello,
I'm, not really thinking of suicide. But, I seem to hurt my friends and co workers alot with things I say to them on emails at work. I got caught twice for doing this. I am nice to them in person, but when I email them, I'm a totally different person.

I love my co workers alot. But when I'm alone, I get thoughts in my head and write to them and then I think they get upset at me. I cant hardly talk to any of them now outside of the office.

I dont know what to do with myself. I love all of them.

I hope you understand this. There is more, but I'm in a hurry to leave the office.

I hope to hear from you cause my co workers really want me to get help on this situation.

Michelle

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

Hello:
What is it about these people that you feel like you want to say mean things to them through an email? Do you feel safer when you correspond through email? Do you really not like these people or do you really not like yourself?

abig24fan1993 · Joined: 18 Apr 2008 Posts: 18

I think I dont like myself do to that I am over weight by 100 lbs. And my mother gets on me about that and then that gets me upset and I dont talk to alot of people then. I think I just try to get attention, but dont know why.

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

Okay, sounds like you need to work on yourself and forget about the other people. Are you motivated to do that?

abig24fan1993 · Joined: 18 Apr 2008 Posts: 18

Yes, I will try anything to help me like myself more. Please help me and then others will like being around me also cause then I will not put myself down all the time around them or be quiet.

Michelle

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

This is not about other people and you need to stop thinking that it is. This is about you and how you feel about yourself. If you like yourself, then others will like you. It is that simple. Do you do anything that makes you feel good about yourself?

abig24fan1993 · Joined: 18 Apr 2008 Posts: 18

I dont really have anything that I am good at. Atleast I dont think I am. At work, I always feel that the main guy likes my co worker better than I. Than that makes me feel I have a bad day.

Also, at home, my mom does everything for my brother. She cleans his house, cooks for him. Leaves his food warm for him when he is late and mine is in the fridgerator when I get home late. He is older than I am and lives on his own. I would live on my own, but cant afford it.

Sorry it took so long to write back. And thanks for listening to me.

I was thinking about this today while I was outside working.

Michelle

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

Of course there are things that you are good at, you just do not have anyone to point them out to you. What i asked though, is what you do to make yourself feel good? How do you like to have fun? Your welcome and I am glad that you are thinking, it is always a good thing. Very Happy

abig24fan1993 · Joined: 18 Apr 2008 Posts: 18

I like to have fun at work by talking and being myself, that's when I have a good day. It makes the day go faster, but yet I work also. I was asked today to be a delegate for my office and teach kids water saftey.

I got taken out to lunch today by co workers which was nice since I'm the secretary and a delegate.

It just makes me feel go to know that I can tell you things and you can help me out. Even thought I dont know you and have never met you. This takes alot of pressure off of my other co worker when I told her things before.

Michelle

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

sorry, i responded to you the other day, but did not post correctly. sounds like you are well liked at work. what makes you think that you are not? what else is going on in your life besides work?

abig24fan1993 · Joined: 18 Apr 2008 Posts: 18

I found out that i have endometriosis when I had my appendix taken out. I need to loose my weight, but when I walk my two miles, it seems like nothing happens.

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

Okay, so what else can you do besides walking? Losing weight is about how you feel about yourself and how you are going to make yourself feel better. Have a great day.

abig24fan1993 · Joined: 18 Apr 2008 Posts: 18

OK, I have this problem about going to things that I usually go to for work. But this time, I dont want to go because of the person that I wrote the emails to at work will be there. We have been talking and she said that she wants to see me and it will get better.

This is just my way of punishing. Now at work my co worker knows I'm having problems cause I dont talk much to her. Just only when she talks to me. I usually help her at a both, but I dont want to this year. She told me that she wants me to go with her instead of the other guys. But I just dont want too. Is that selfishs of me? I just feel I dont need to do fun things this year for work.

What should I do?????
Michelle

Jennifer · Site Admin Joined: 27 May 2007 Posts: 2356

Well, you do not own anything to anybody but yourself. I did think that you wanted to make up with this girl and this sounds like a great time to do it. Why do you not want to do fun things at work?

abig24fan1993 · Joined: 18 Apr 2008 Posts: 18

Because I am mad at myself. Who knows, I may go. But right now, I sure dont want to.
I'm a pain arent I?
Michelle