Why can't I get over it

[GABBY]

Here I am at the end of 2008 and I feel so bad, I have been with my husband for about four years and I cant blame him for my depression after all I was depressed before I met him,cant talk to pastor or wife because they have severe issues of their own. My co-workers well I am like the new kid on the block so they have their own click and I guess I am just feeling really blue I try to find the bright side of thing it's just that it does not last long dont know where my house keys are which irritates my husband when I do things like that feeling not good enough and like I dont belong I am at work and I can't seem to motivate my self to work need advice

[Jennifer]

hey
have you been diagnosed with clinical depression? do you take medicatons? what do you enjoy doing? why can't you talk to the people in your life?

[GABBY]

Thanks for replying

No I have not been diagnosed I just know that I have a problem cant afford professional help cant talk to husband because he always talks about something I need to do or have not done cant talk to pastor because if your not coming to church monday,tuesdsay sat and sun they treat you like your a plague sometimes we just cant go so often my mom well she has issues of her own and I don't really have any friends

[Jennifer]

No wonder you are depressed? Has it always been this way? Have you always felt alone and shy away from making friends outside of your relationship? Do you have anything in your life that you enjoy doing? You need to find outlets, hobbies something that makes you happy all for you.