My life...

[Jennifer]

That is GREAT!!!! Good for you for taking care of yourself and working on finding different ways to deal with things.

[TwinkleJ]

I was just re-reading my post to you, and realized that I said "you are God's son" I didn't mean to write "son" I guess I'm just used to typing God's son to refer to Jesus...I meant "God's child." Didn't mean to insinuate that you were a boy or anything... I didn't know for sure, so I tried not to type gender specific words...I hope I didn't offend you. I can put more of a face to you now that I know you are a girl, though. I'm sure you're pretty! CONGRATULATIONS that you haven't cut yourself lately. That's great! Love your body and to quote my in-laws (who are very conservative) "your body is the Lord's temple, and we should treat it with respect" They were telling me this, though, trying to get me to quit smoking... I do believe that to an extent. I mean, this is the only body you will have, ya know? Good luck, and I hope all goes well with overcoming this.

If it makes you feel any better, I wasn't close to my Dad at all when I lived at home. Now that I've grown up a bit, I'm closer to him than I was, but my Dad never really had time to talk to me much. The fact is, you can not change how he feels, only how you feel. One day he will wake up, a sad old man, and realize that his daughter is all grown up, and he missed it because he was too busy setting expectations. Until then, try not to let it bother you. Think of it as more of his problem than yours.
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~*Keep On Shining*~

[kyndall92]

You totally did not offend me... no worries!! I've done something like that before so it's not a big deal!
I mean I guess it isn't my fault (relationship with my dad), but it still feels like it ya know? I feel like if I was just better at things he would approve... but I think that's part of my problem. I strive for the impossible goal of perfection and it wears me out... trying to please everybody all the time. I guess sometimes I have to focus on myself first, and then focus on being there for other people.
And now it has been 5 days that I haven't cut... I finally feel like I'm getting somewhere.

[Jennifer]

you will learn that in time you cannot always please everybody, heck most of the time, you cannot even please yourself I had an over acheiver family and my dad was pretty hard on me when I was young and now that I look back on it, I appreciate what he did, but at that time, it was realy hard for me to accept or even consider that he loved me.

He showed love the only way he knew how and sometimes we have to stretch to see the love that others have for us, but i'm sure somewhere he believes he is doing something good for you and in time you might see that too.

5 days, WAAAHHHHH!!!!!!

[kyndall92]

It's been 2 weeks and I haven't cut!!! I'm so proud of myself!! I'm so thankful for my youth pastor and his wife...

[Jennifer]

and be thankful for yourself and your ability to reach out and get the help that you need. you go!

[kyndall92]

thank you so much!! i still haven't cut. i'm doing really well.

[Jennifer]