My life

[saeed]

i dont feel okay i feel lonely and empty.
the thing is i want someone to listen i just want someone to know that im here and i feel my life is a mess i dont have someone to talk to about my life even my family i cant talk to them about my life i dont think someone will understand me.
i dont know what to do with my life i dont have a job i did't finished my studies and i just have a lot of time and dont know what to do.
im afraid of the future i dont want 2moro come i dont know weather its gonna be the same day i lived it everyday or something gonna happen.
i few years my mom just passed away and my father is an old man and i keep thinkin maybe 2night he gonna die or maybe 2moro i just worry 2 much about him you see i love him just like i loved my mother and i dont wanna lose another family member.
i have a brother he is just older than me but i take care of him and the other things in the house i dont wanna talk about him but he is just cant take care of himself.
i cant open my own bussniss because of the th situation here is so messy (i live in iraq) and i dont have a job and there is no cool places to go around here just to relaxe or somethin, there are a lot of free time and there is nothin to do and this is drive me crazy and i keep thinkin about my brother and my father and what im gonna do with my life is it gonna be like this forever ? am i gonna change or something ? and a lot of things i just keep thinkin about and this is drive me crazy.

[Jennifer]

sorry for the loss of your mom and it sounds as if your family is pretty important to you, which it should be but it should not be a reason/excuse for you not to live your life the way you want too. Are they holding you back or are you holding yourself back? Do you think that you are depressed? Yes, where you live makes it harder to have choices I am sure, but you still have them and you are choosing to be the way you are now and you can choose not to be as well, up to you