Loosing Grip

[LoosingGrip]

I can't get off the couch. All I want to do is sleep. I am taking Lexapro but soon I wont have any because I am now pennyless with no prospects of a job.

I have always been a very strong person and a survivor but now find myself lost. I lost my job in November and found out my father has cancer in December. His cancer is all over and although he has tried treatment the cancer has now spread to his brain. Three weeks ago he had a siezure from the swelling of the tumors that grew overnight. All of my brothers and sisters came to be by his bed side. He pulled through but is only part of the man he was and now childlike. We dont now how long he will be here, days weeks, a month... the treatments are not working.
Some of my brothers and sisters and my son were coming home from seeing my dad and were in a very serious accident when an armed robber being chased by 20 police cars hit our truck. We were surrounded by officers with M16's and guns drawn.
My sister was thrown from the truck 100 feet and broke two bones in her neck, had bleeding on the brain and a crushed arm. The rest of us trapped in trauma all night in neck braces and in cat scans to make sure we were ok, agonized over not being able to be with our sister. Bruised and traumatized we all fared well including my sister who is doing very well considering.

I a having nightmares, I have no money left. I've sold everything. I will not be able to keep taking the lexapro which I have been cutting in half (20mg) in order to make it last longer. And I cannot get off the couch. My family needs me but I cant even bring myself to call. I just want to sleep. My girlfriend brought me this website, she says I am scaring her. I don't want that and I feel bad that I have now finacially drained her through all of this.

[Jennifer]

Hello:
I know it doesn't seem like it, but you are a fighter. I do not know where you live, but have you looked into any type of financial assistance. If you are diagonsed with depression you could qualify for disability as well as I have to believe that there are clinics in your area that you can get medication from. Even though you are depressed, sounds like you have a great support system and everyone around you is there to help you.

How do you do when you are on the lexapro? Does things seem better?

I am glad to hear that your sister and everybody else is okay.

[LoosingGrip]

I am 41, female and I live in Fort Lauderdale, FL. The lexapro was helping me even cut in half until now. Actually I would say it must be helping still because I dont know how bad it would be without it. I havent been to the doctor since Dec because I dont have insurance now and cant afford to go back. I dont want to sink deeper but I dont know how to get myself out of all of this despair. Everyone keeps telling me to just get out and do something but it is not so simple. I feel it physically like a big blanket smothering me.

[Jennifer]

How are you? How the lexapro working out for you?

[B1987]

all my best wishes to you in finding, money a job and with your father! i'm so sorry to hear your story, we all have our own probs and unfortunaltley always will