Long term depression

[Jennifer]

Hey
I wrote an article that I want you to read http://www.completecounselingsolutions.com/articles/100/Pessimism-and-depression

Let me know what you think.

[Nick]

Nothing seems to be working. I feel worst then ever. Its like im broke and no longer work. I feel angry all the time now I have no interest in anything I just want it all to stop. I don't want to feel this way. I tried positive reinforcement but I have nothing to be positive about!! You said I should find happiness in myself and not others but everytime I look into myself I get sadder and more depressed.

Yesterday at my job I was denied a raise because of my attitude because I always seem so angry and don't ever communicate with anyone. Im tired of being that way and can't fix it, it hurts to much I want it gone. I want to be like everyone else. I want to stop looking at everything and being unhappy. Why do I keep feeling worst, I try and all i do is fail and feel more horrible. I can't hold any happy thoughts, I can't interact with people anymore. I have nothhing

I read all these articles I try talking about my problems facing them, positice reinforcement but it all seems in vain and I just end up feeling worst. Its not fair why is it easier for everyone. How come when I try, when I interact with everyone it doesn't work like im not suppose to be doing this. I treat people good I am respectful and yet everyone who doesn't do that, people who treat others like crap get what I try so hard for. Just like her, she pretends to be my friend reassures me about everything being alright and pretends to care about me then just laughs at my misery and has friends, loved ones, everything. While I have nothing! She should have nothing not me! I just want answers I want it all to stop I don't care anymore I just want to be happy. Im scared it all feels like my problems are getting worst and then all the things that happen to me only reinforce that fear. I just want an answer so I can move on from all my problems, i know its not that easy but im so tired of all of it.

[Jennifer]

I know you said that money is a problem, but I think it might be time to try some counseling. The fact that you were denied a promotion because of what is going on, signals a need to change things.

I have worked with people that it takes a long time for anger to go away and there is no quick fix for this. This is constant and hard work to try to forgive and move forward with your life.