I might be pregnant, how do i tell my mom if i am?

[prelandra14]

It's been a month, i missed my period and there could be a chance i'm pregnant. I honestly hate myself right now. I have to put up with alot of crap with my mom, and i don't want to put her through more. It's hard to tell my mom stuff because she goes through alot and i don't want to put her through alot even more because of me, cause she says im part of the reason why she's sick and she's like that. I remember a couple months ago my ex boyfriend raped me, i just wanted my mom to me hold as if i were only a little girl again, and yet i still consider myself a little girl who still needs her mother to watch over her. My mother told me if she found out if i wasn't a virgin, or if i ever ended up pregnant. She told me she is going to send me away to my dad and that is like way in the phillipines and she told me that i might as well just forget her as my mother. I can't live with my dad, he has no money they're poor that's pretty much why i'm here, so i could live a better life. And i can't be apart from my boyfriend cause right now i feel as if he was the only one i have left, and i will go crazy without him. I can't turn to my family nor can i turn to my parents, it's hard to tell my friends cause i don't even know them that well and my boyfriend is like the only one i could turn to. If i am pregnant i wouldn't have any idea how to tell my mother. I hate dealing with all this crap. Sometimes i just wish i could just go somewhere where i wouldn't have to worry about anything anymore. At times i just feel like hurting myself so badly. I miss the pain, I miss how i would take a razor and dig it in my skin and all my pain and anger would just drain out of me. I miss it so much but my boyfriend tells me that i can't do that, and even, I, myself know that is wrong. But holding it in just makes it feel like i have this sharp pain in my heart, and i get so mad cause all i could do is just cry.
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Ray P.

[Jennifer]

first step is take a pregnancy test. we will deal with the rest as it comes.

[prelandra14]

thank god i don't think i am
well atleast i think i had it?
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Ray P.

[Jennifer]

go get a pregnancy test, why haven't you done that.