Help!!!! Falling Down a Rabbit Hole With No Way Out

[severelydepressed]

My life is definitely not going the way that I thought it would. I am 25 years old and I have no job, no money, no friends and no relationship. I am living at home with my parents and everyday I feel more and more like I have no reason to live anymore. I am not suicidal, but I feel like it is just hopeless for me. I keep trying to hold onto some remnance of faith, but it is so hard because it seems like no matter how hard I try to help myself, I always fail. It's as if, I am being punished for doing something horrible, of which I have no idea what. I am dealing with feelings of inadequacy and uselessness because I have no job and nothing to fill my time. I am not doing anything with my life. I want to, but for some reason I cannot get hired...anywhere. I am a smart girl, a college graduate and I am physically able to work, yet I cannot find a job. I have very little money left and my bills are steadily piling up. I seriously do not know what I am doing wrong. I feel completely rejected in all aspects of my life and I take each one like a bullet. It seems like every time I get excited about something, it blows up in my face and I am left feeling stupid and disappointed. I feel like at the root of my problem is my lack of self-esteem. Lately, I just go through the motions and go into things expecting to be heart-broken and disappointed and I have yet to be proven wrong. I feel like getting a job would go a long way towards helping me get some confidence back, not to mention giving me a little purpose in life and allowing me to take care of myself. This useless feeling is so strong that a lot of times, I don't even feel like getting out of bed in the morning. What can I do? I want to get my life together. I am still young and still want to believe that I can be happy. But, I feel so lost and don't know where to begin to pick up the pieces.

[Jennifer]

Hello:
Have you had jobs in the past?? What kind of jobs are you good at?? What part of the country do you live in? Right now, there are a lot of people out of work that cannot get work. I know it seems hopeless right now, but our economy is not doing so great so I do not know why you are blaming yourself?