BIPOLAR BOYFRIEND

[FAITH09]

SO IV'E BEEN WITH MY BOYFRIEND FOR 1 YEAR AND 5 MONTHS.......WE HAVE GONE THROUGH A LOT.....HIS MOTHER SAYS HE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH BIPOLAR WHEN HE WAS YOUNGER...BUT HE DENIES THE DOCTOR EVER SAYING THAT.....IM 21 AND HE IS 19........SOMETIMES I FEEL MAYBE ITS THE AGE DIFFERENCE AND THATS WHY WE HAVE SOO MANY PROBLEMS...BUT I REALLY DONT THINK THATS IT......IVE READ OTHER STORIES THAT PEOPLE HAVE POSTED ON THE INTERNET ABOUT THEIR EXPERIENCE WITH DEALING WITH AN Bipolar LOVED ONE...AND LET ME TELL YOU......IT SOUNDS LIKE HIM....HE CAN BE THE SWEETEST GUY BUT ALSO THE MOST CRAZY......WE HAVE BROKEN UP SOOOOOO MANY TIMES AND MOST TIMES IT WAS A FEW DAYS....THE LONGEST I CAN REMEMBER WAS MAYBE 2 TO 3 WEEKS.....I THOUGHT IT WAS REALLY OVER THAT TIME, BUT IT WAS NOT....HE BRAKES UP WITH ME BECAUSE HE GETS REALLY UPSET AND RATHER NOT DEAL WITH IT....THE BEST WAY TO GET OUT OF IT IS SAY HURTFUL THINGS TO GET ME TO LEAVE HIM ALONE ....BUT THEN YET HE REGRETS SAYING IT ALL ..AND WHEN I TRY TALKING TO HIM ABOUT IT ITS BACK TO SQUARE ONE AGAIN....HES MAD AGAIN AND WANTS TO JUST DROP IT LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED....I DONT KNOW BUT FOR ME IT DOSENT WORK THAT WAY.....I'VE BROKEN UP WITH HIM WHEN I JUST COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE AND FELT LIKE I NEEDED TO TAKE A STANCE AND MAKE HIM FEEL SOMETHING 2....BUT I KNOW I MAY TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT SOMETIMES....WHEN I DONT WANT TO TALK TO HIM HE KEEPS CALLING...SHOWS UP AT MY JOB.....GOES TO MY HOUSE LEAVES LETTERS...TRIES TO FIND ME AT MY FRIENDS.....BUT YET HE CAN TREAT ME LIKE HE DONT CARE.....I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO...IM TIRED OF THE BACK AND FORTH......ITS GETTTING REALLY OLD NOW ...I LOVE HIM AND WANT TO BE WITH HIM BUT NOT IF THINGS ARE NOT GOING TO CHANGE......SHOULD I STAY OR LET IT ALL GO??? I FEEL LIKE I HAVE LOST MY OWN RESPECT FOR BEING WITH HIM.....IS IT STUPID?? TO CARE ABOUT HIM THAT MUCH??
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LIVE,LAUGH,LOVE

[Jennifer]

not stupid to care, but can you handle it? if you can handle it then stick it out and keep on encouraging him to get the help he needs. my theory is always, saftey first, you need to keep yourself safe and make sure you do what you need to do in order to stay safe.